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Tonight, I cry

Tonight is the night I give up about 5 years of my life. Tonight is the night my heart beats it’s last and becomes yet another piece of stone. Tonight is the night that my soul dies.

I’ve waited… I’ve wept… I’ve been a pain to some of my closest friends.

Last weekend was my 7th rezday. But last weekend was when I realised Freya was never coming back.

I’ve put our shared land (as much as I can) up for sale… If she ever comes back, I’ll split it with her.

Tonight is the night I asked Governor Linden for a divorce.

Tonight, I hate myself.

Tonight, the world changed… and not, whatever you say, for the better.

I got a linden home… where I am now, will be there…

Whatever…

I need a new…

… life? job? other? all of the above?

I tried blogging this from work yesterday lunchtime, but my mobile connection was decidedly unstable and though it left my phone, it never hit the site. Still, a test this morning worked, so it is something I may start to do, assuming I have anything to say.

I hate my job. I sit on a telephone from the minute I start til the minute I get home, talking to morons who wouldn’t know a pc from a monitor … (they don’t, believe me), or a keyboard from a mouse. Remember those old stories about the fabled “any key“, or the “cup holder“, well they’re not fables where I work. We really do have people who are too stupid to use a computer.

Anyway, I digress, I’m looking for a new job. The stress involved in this one is too much. Daily I come home with a headache, excess stomach acid, and what might be worse considering I’m riding a motorcycle through rush hour, half falling asleep, and with zero concentration. I wonder some days how I even made it in one piece.

Still, I am looking.

In SL it is almost as bad. Nothing particularly wrong in SL, but a combination of stress, lack of sleep, and the fact that my working hours are more or less incompatible with Freya’s means that I’m not having a lot of fun at the moment. I suppose this might change. Work shifts too, and later shifts seem to work better.

The shop rebuild/refit is coming along nicely, though slowly, and is temporarily labelled as “Zazi Retail Park”. We’re late of course, as we were supposed to re-open last weekend. Still, it’s not that important as long as we get there soon.

I need to get ready for another day of hell, so I’ll close now.