A visit to the doctor

I’ve been off work for the last two days, feeling generally down. I couldn’t get an appointment yesterday, but this morning, after waiting for two and a half hours, I got to see my GP – it’s the first time I’ve seen him since I moved here, almost 2 years ago – and he confirmed at least the basics of what’s wrong as being deppression. So now I have to try and change my life to get over it… Walking and exercise to start, try to socialise and then go back in a couple of weeks to see if we need a more chemical treatment.

What causes it though? Well, it’s a few things I guess, including a sense of not belonging or displacement, a lack of local friends, work being stressful and boring, loneliness and of course the general self loathing that comes with gender disphoria. Lots to work with.

The doctor was nice about it though. He admitted he knows little about gender issues except what he has read in regular journals, but he’s going to try to find out more and maybe refer me to a local specialist, so there could be some progress there. It’s a first step anyway.

2 thoughts on “A visit to the doctor”

  1. Even though you may feel down now what you’ve taken is a HUGE step toward a better life, at least IMHO. You should be so proud of yourself for recognizing this problem and taking measures to address it. I lived under a great deal of depression and social anxiety for the majority of my life. A big part of my life, however, was the mindset that to admit to anyone, or even oneself, that I had a mental health issue was to admit something about yourself that would forever mark you in the community as broken mentally. Meanwhile, of course, the rest of my family “treated” their various issues with alcohol, drugs, overeating, etc… Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS for taking hold of this problem and working to do something about it. That and persistence will carry you a long way toward living a more fulfilling life! 🙂 -Jani

  2. /me hugs Sio.

    Take care, Sio. Exercise is good for the outlook. Unfortunately, it’s harder to motivate yourself the worse you feel. Try to find something that you really like or that you always wanted to try – a martial art, dance, walks in the park, etc.

    You’re not broken. 🙂

    -Jen

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