Random thoughts

I’ve been meaning to write some more now for a few days, and I guess, now that SL is down, it’d be a good time to try and collect my thoughts.

Anyone who follows this blog will know I’ve not written a lot since the big move. I really don’t know why either. I had a job which took a lot of my time, but that’s gone again and I have time.

I’ve stayed in touch with Nenya and Eloise since the weekend. I’m glad to notice that Eloise is well enough to be back in SL too, though we’ve not yet had a chance to talk about how well she is, or her plans. Hopefully, next weekend will cover that. Anyways, Nenya is as chatty as ever, and I think we’ll be fine as friends. Hopefully after next weekend, I’ll be able to say the same about Eloise.

I think part of the reason for this post is to thank them for the gift of their submission that they gave me for the time they did. Nenya for a year, Eloise for a few months. It was a fun time though, and in their ways, they inspired me and gave me strength when I needed it. They cheered me when I was sad, and watched out for me. Anyone should consider themself lucky to call either of these women a friend.

Changes

I’m really not sure how to write this. I’m feeling pretty depressed about it all, but I can’t change it, and I guess, I’ve had it better than some.

As most of my readers will know, I’ve had a few submissives lately. Well, it’s changed. Nenya, I’ve seen coming for a while. She’s not really a submissive type, and she doesn’t want to do it any more. It’s her choice of course, and I respect it. It doesn’t hurt any less for it though. I met Nenya in Sociolotron. She’s been my pet in Second Life for a year. As of now, she is free, and I wish her the best of everything. I hope we’re friends for many more years. D/s isn’t everything.

The other was more of a surprise. Eloise emailed me today to tell me she didn’t want to be my sub anymore. She’s been ill for a month or so and hasn’t been around. Something changed during that time, obviously. Her too, I wish well, and hope our friendship remains. This hurts too.

Kaili left a long time ago. She wanted to explore. She’s still a friend though and we talk in Eve. Perhaps a template for the future.

So now I have no subs. Damian told me I could easily get more in SL. The point is…  I’m not sure I want to. I spent a year being a Domme, and maybe it’s enough. Maybe I should go back to being plain, ordinary Sio. I still have my beloved Freya, partners now for two years, and lovers longer. She’s stayed with me though rough times and smooth, good and bad… We’ve had fights, and we’ve had fun times. She is my world.

So where do I go from here? Right now, I just want to cry, my heart aches so bad. But I have good friends, and I know they look out for me, so I guess I have it better than many who might be in my position.