Shades of depression

What a boring day. Long and quiet. Sure, Eloise has tried to keep me entertained, and as always with some success. But with the constant stream of IM spam gone, it just seems quiet. I wouldn’t go so far as to say I miss it, but it was like having a radio or a tv on in the background, supplying an ever present reminder that there are other things happening in the world. Maybe I’ll just stop caring. I’ve already lost respect for several Lindens – but I suppose that’s not unusual these days, Linden “justice” being what it is.

So here I am, lying on a bench in Io, giving serious consideration to whether or not I really want to stay in Second Life. I doubt I’d be missed if I left, except by a few close friends. I’m not a famous designer, not even that well known for building any more, and my presence on the Help Islands has probably been forgotten already. Things change that quickly in this world. Does anyone even know me anymore?

Todays news…

Well, I’m kind of upset, on a few levels, and over a few things. It’s not exactly been a bad day, but not great either, in Second Life, at least.

Yesterday, I almost lost a friend. Fortunately, I didn’t, and that means a lot to me, but I was rather upset over it last night. Just one of those things, but sorted now… well, for the time being.

Also, just before I logged out last night, I got an odd email saying my application to join Live Help had been rejected. This was rather odd, since I’d not sent an application since I joined it. So, I asked. And this morning got a reply saying it was a mistake, but that I’d been booted out of the volunteer program after the warning I’d had.

Well… at that time, I’d not had any warnings for anything, so I queried that too, at which time a warning arrived. Apparently, at some time yesterday I threatened someone in Live Help, and am therefore removed from all the volunteer groups that I’ve been in for three years. Well, I have no idea whom I was supposed to have threatened, since I wasn’t even tagged up, but such is the way of the Lindens. I suppose someone accused me out of spite, but how can I ever know? Of course, I appealed, but I don’t suppose anything will come of it…

So much for that. I give them my time to help people for three years, and then suddenly, they boot me out. At least now I won’t have to deal with the spam. I don’t really care much about the groups, and to be honest, I have been thinking about my membership anyway over the last few weeks, but it’s the insult to my reputation. Linden Lab accused me of threatening behaviour, and give no opportunity to defend myself. I know they never do, and I am no different to anyone else they accuse, but it feels bad.

So there you go. I am an ex-mentor, an ex-instructor and an ex-live-helper. If my appeal succeeds, will I re-apply? Somehow, I doubt it. If this is how they behave, then I don’t see why I should give them my time.

Unproductive afternoon, and old memories

Today was another of those days when I just hung out with friends, talked a little, and did well, nothing really productive. A long sleepy afternoon, which of course, can be fun in and of itself. Anyways, lots of chat, lots of browsing other people’s blogs, and well… laziness. Even got a few ideas for new stuffs to make and sell.

Later, I met up with Imagoel and set up shop in Utopia, so now I have two outlets for my stuff. Maybe it will even sell.

While browsing the web, I found a photo of me from 2003, which led me to Arlin Psaltery’s website. It’s amazing what you find when you aren’t looking for it. Only has a few SL pics up, but they were memories.

Burning Life looks like it’ll be fun. Freya and I flew around it a bit and there were some things worth looking at. Shame about the lag, but I guess you can’t have everything.

A-Z

Nicked from Willow, Scarlet and Iris

[A is for age] 37, well, almost 38.

[B is for booze of choice] Wine, red, I like a few varieties.

[C is for career of choice] Vibrator tester.

[D is for your drug of choice] Caffeine.

[E is for one essential item you use everyday] My PDA.

[F is for favorite song at the moment] Eloise (“The Damned” version)

[G is for favorite game] Er, Second Life?

[H is for Hometown] Currently Stroud, near Gloucester.

[I is for instruments you play] Harmonica count? Otherwise none.

[J is for favorite juice] Grapefruit.

[K is for kids] Pan-fried in butter.

[L is for last hug] In SL, this morning by Eloise… in RL… er, don’t remember.

[M is for marriage?] A long time ago.

[N is for nickname] Sio (like you didn’t know)

[O is for number of overnight hospital stays] 2

[P is for phobias] Crowds.

[Q is for quote] “And with endless æons, even death may die” – Lovecraft

[R is for biggest regret] Getting married.

[S is for singing] You’re kidding, right?

[T is for time you woke up] 7:30am.

[U is for underwear]You’ll have to come see… 😉

[V is for vegetable you love] Potato

[W is for worst habit] Getting drunk while playing SL.

[X is for number of x-rays you’ve got] None.

[Y is for yummy food you make] I can make most things, but I’m told I make fantastic bread.

[Z is for zodiac sign] Virgo.

“Precious Metals” Pet Display goes on sale

Precious Metals is a new range of items to display those most precious of possessions your pets, chained in place, on the attractive metal frame.

This Pet Display is lockmeister compatible and comes with basic collar and cuffs. It adds beauty to any setting, displaying your pets at their most vulnerable. Mmmm 🙂

Pet Display Pic

Now only an amazing L$150 from Eloise’s ONE at Honawan and the Adult Toy Shop in Utopia

Late arrival

Well, yesterday I was too lazy, at least in Second Life, and my re-entry to the retail market has been delayed. Hopefully only until today though. We’ll see.

In other news, a big hug to Willow Zander, who seems to be having a hard time right now, and who’ll be away from Second Life for a week or so. We all love you, Willow!

Some photos from my rezday party

I wasn’t sure about posting these. I mean, it was a rough few days and well, considering the disaster it turned into, I wasn’t really happy at all. Still, for the people who were there, and for those who would like to have been there but for whatever reason couldn’t, it wouldn’t be fair not to.

So, here you are… Enjoy 🙂

and here, at the end… a rather fortuitous meeting…