Popular?

I noticed yesterday that Mochastyle made the popular places list.  Not if you count places in the so called "Mature" sims, of course, but we were there.  It’s been months since that has happened.  That makes me feel so proud!  In the old days we were there almost all the time, and pretty high up the list too, quite often, but since the rebuild we’ve been kind of dead in the water.

Maybe an official "Grand Opening" is needed these days?  I was trying to avoid it as you see so many events advertising "My Store is Open for Business" that I thought it overdone.  Still, one learns from experience I suppose.  Even managed to get a few people there for the lottery – which worked after some hiccups – for the first time in ages.

And so I’m hopeful for the future of Mochastyle.  We have some new vendors in now, including The Fairchangs, Psyra and many others whom I’d list if I could get into SL to check.

So if you’re a new vendor at Mochastyle, "Welcome", and if you’re an existing vendor who’s chosen to stay, "Thank You".  We hope to be here for a long time!

Sunday Morning Again

You can tell it’s a Sunday.  It’s cold and it’s raining.  Well, it is here, anyway.

So it’s mostly been a fun weekend.  Late home on Friday from work, then Odil Lumiere came to hang out with Freya and I for a bit.  Seems she’d never been to Pixel Dolls before!  She’s been now though, so she’s poor like the rest of us.

There are certain designers in SL, maybe 4 I could name, who’s every new release of clothing spells poverty for the rest of us.  Why are we such clothing addicts?  I mean, it’s SL, it’s virtual!  We don’t need clothes, except for modesty and visiting the Welcome Area, yet we spend thousands of L$ a week on keeping up with the latest fashions. 

On the other hand Carpe Diem!  In rl we need to pay for food, heating, transport, communications (or we wouldn’t be here) and so on.  In SL, all we need to spend money on is land and clothes, so just have fun I guess.

Anyway, we spent most of yesterday shopping for gold stuff ready for Odil’s party.  Fun, yes… but pointless in my case… I didn’t win anything, lol.

Today’s another day though.  I have my lottery tonight… assuming anyone shows up.  Nobody did for the last two, so I didn’t make the draw.  Looks like people don’t even like free money any more.  We’ll see.

Thoughts on the SL Forum

Well, if they can be called thoughts anyway.  I think far too many people just use the forum as a vector for hurting people.  I won’t name names, let’s face it, I don’t have to.  Some of these people wouldn’t recognise civility if it walked up to them and kissed them ‘hello’.

On the other hand, there are some nice folk there too, and the people who genuinely wish to discuss the topics at hand.  They can be a pleasure to read, and probably the reason I keep going back for more.

As for the others, well… Karma’s a bitch, and I can be a very patient woman.  That and I’ve booked front row seats.

What an exciting life I lead…

So much so that I don’t even know what to write, lol.

I’m waiting for Freya to get home, and hoping she will before I have to go to bed.  I’m confident though, really, I am.

Another long day at work for me today, so it means I’ll be finishing early tomorrow, I hope, lol.  I do like early finishing on Friday… Means I can converse with a bottle while most are still at work.  Well, a woman can dream, can’t she?

Time is an illusion

So another day is past.  It happens you know!  I wake up, shower, go to work… (sometimes I even see the sunrise while sitting in traffic, but usually not as I ride a bike), I come home after dark and the day is gone.  I have food, a drink, log into SL for a while, then go to bed.

Today is no different really, except that Freya’s away.  Still, it gives me a chance to get some housework done, or would if I wasn’t here posting, lol.

So my thread on the SL forums was Lindenised.  I shouldn’t be surprised, they’ve done it before and no doubt they’ll do it again.  Seems only the serious land owners are allowed to post these days.  The rest of us, well… we aren’t so important to the Lindens.  Not generating enough income I guess.

Anyway, I have to promise myself never again to start a 10 minute job 20 minutes before it’s time to come home!  I did that today and it took almost an hour… mostly because of missing drivers and people looking…  In the end I downloaded them again… 50MB for drivers though?  It’s insane I tell you!

So I’m giving serious consideration to the future of Mochastyle.  Don’t get me wrong, I love it.  But in the days before, it was the single biggest, most successful mall in a PG sim, even more so than some island sims.  Now, it doesn’t even come close to paying its way.  Of the big name vendors who were there before, all of whom were invited back, only two or three have come.  They say yes, we will, but I never see them… I have an empty mall…  Of course the (almost) free market (at L$1 per week) is doing better.  So I dunno… I suppose I can wait a little longer, but the land tier is draining.

So anyway, what else for today… yes, I sent an apology to Brianna for bringing her into that thread yesterday.  There’s history there, and we’re not exactly friends, but that was wrong.  I considered making it a public apology, but I don’t want certain people turning it into yet another excuse for a flame war.

And that’s my day, so far at least…

Getting it all off my chest

As you’ll have read, I’ve been pretty down lately. I’ve been letting the break up with Julia get to me.  Perhaps, of course, that’s what she wanted, but I really don’t think so.  It’s not like her to do that.

In any case, I wrote her an open letter in the SL forums.  I doubt she’ll read it, but maybe someone will tell her about it.  Here it is, for those who want to read… "To Julia…"

And that’s all for now.

Another Day

Well, I made it through another day. You can tell that, mostly because I’m here. At least I hope you can, cos otherwise I’m only dreaming that I’m writing this, and that could get pretty wearing on one.

I didn’t sleep well last night. I was thinking of Julia, and what she said to me. Am I really that heartless and unfeeling? I hope I’m not!

Anyway, that made me tired this morning, and I hate riding while tired! I suppose at least work wasn’t too busy… I was much more awake for the journey home, which is a good thing.

I got a PM from Adia Few today… She’s not been around for ages, but she seems healthy.  She asked about Julia, and it got me thinking again… Damn this emotional roller coaster that is my life right now.  Sometimes fun, a lot of depression between… I really need to get it under control, and soon.

Rocky Horror Meets Stonehenge

Well like wow… it actually worked!

This weekend sees the anniversary of the final live performance of the Rocky Horror Show, and I threw a party at Stonehenge to commemorate the event.  It was more successful than I expected… and we got the soundtrack as background music…

Thanks to Roberta Dalek for the music, and to everyone who showed up, dressed up and voted…

All Good Things

I wrote the other day about how Julia and I split up…

Well, it looks like it’s going to be permanent… I’m a cold, heartless bitch.  I have no feelings, and I am the worst kind of person.  I dunno… she’s determined to hurt me back, and she’s succeeding.

A Cotswold Sunday Morning

I don’t know how many of you know, but I live near Gloucester, in England.  The town I live in is on the edge of the Cotswolds, and it’s a truly beautiful place to live, even in winter.  I look out of the window, and the sky is white… it’s trying very hard to rain, or snow… certainly, it’s cold enough!  My patios at front and back are wet with overnight rain… the lawns are certainly not up to being walked on… but you know, it’s lovely.

It’s yet another weird day though.  I’m in the mood to just have friends round for the day and laugh, tell jokes, natter, or even just to relax, paint my toenails, watch a movie…  The reality of it is that I have a weeks worth of housework to do.  I have to wash, iron, tidy up and all that before we get to the mundane tasks of cooking!  And you know what’s worst?  My coffee machine just overflowed, so that’s another thing I have to do.

So anyway, if you’re in the West Cotswolds, are into girls who like girls, and really want to pamper me today… lol but seriously, this is just another silly day, I’m bouncing and I’ve not even finished my first cup yet.  If I wasn’t hungover from last night I’d be great.

So I wonder… should I just sit here and browse the web?  Should I wander into Second Life and see what wonders the day will bring?  Should I meet with my virtual boyfriend Gordon and take up the Crowbar of Scientific Endeavour in Half Life 2, or  should I just drink my coffee and get on with my chores?

Well Freya’s not awake yet, so I guess SL is out, at least for now…

Red Wine and Chocolate

So I finally made it out of the house to do some shopping.

There’s always the danger here of buying alcohol and nothing else, which is just a recipe for trouble really, though probably fun too.  Anyway, I managed to survive that.  I got some chocolate cake and some take-away indian food too.  Ok, it’s not really a help, but I was in a hurry to get back.

You see, I think the universe is conspiring against me!

For three days, Freya and I have spent about zero time together.  Wednesday and Thursday evenings, she had meetings, and last night, she was out with her RL SO… Anyway, we planned for today to meet up about 9am…

Well first, I didn’t wake up til 10am, which didn’t help… and then you have slow morning start.  Then, at about 11:30, Freya had to take her cat to see the vet, and shop… well, it has to be done or you starve.  Then, when she got home, she fell, hit her head and has been on the sofa with pain killers since!

So, from 10am til 4pm, the universe has kept us apart!  I mean, if that’s not a conspiracy, what is?

Additional Thoughts

At least Freya didn’t throw a wobbly over last night’s post, which I showed her, of course.  I’d given her a hard time over her going out in RL and leaving me alone – which isn’t like me, but I’ve been in a bit of a weird mood lately.  I guess I should try to make it up to her and soon.

Also, I need to do something about – or for – Julia.  I still haven’t got over what happened, and knowing it’s my own fault doesn’t make it any easier.  And now that she’s cancelled my card (the SL equivalent of a friends list is Calling Cards), I know she doesn’t intend to try to win me back, at least any time soon.  Even so, I should make some kind of gesture, to show I still care.

She was a year old in SL too while she was away; November 1st.  And nobody remembered!  You know how that would feel?  I mean, I knew, but nobody else.

If I could turn back time - as in the song by Cher – would I?  I really don’t know.  Trying to balance what I had with what I now have is hard.

A Cold Morning on the Outside

It was hard waking up today.  After 10am too, when I usually wake about 6am.  I hate cold, wet miserable mornings… but at least I don’t need to ride to work today.

Anyway, I got coffee (as you do) and logged in.  People are crowded round the Welcome Area in Ahern, talking about Braniacs and sucking… most odd, though there is a vampire in the crowd, so I suppose it makes some kind of perverted sense.  As a Mentor, I suppose I should close it down, and get the talk onto more wholesome lines, but it’s a Saturday morning, and I’m in a perverse frame of mind.  Maybe some sucking wouldn’t be so bad… lol

And now some guy is hitting on me, wanting an invite to my home.  I told him where it was of course, so he can visit it – it’s Stonehenge, in Mocha, if you care – … but I’m staying at the Welcome Area with Freya and the Newbies, lol.

So there, I need more coffee… More later maybe,

Sio

Arrival

Hi,

Some of you will know me, some not. I live, or rather I spend all my free time in a virtual world called Second Life – I recommend it…

Anyway, I thought I’d start this blog because I really need to get my thoughts put down before this whole life drives me insane. You see, I’ve had a very weird few weeks in SL…

It all started maybe a month and a half back. My partner, Julia and I had had a falling out. We’d fought before of course, but this was somehow worse. Anyway, the result was that our home was destroyed, along with a lot of other stuff. Needless to say I was devastated.

A day or so later, Julia apologised (as did I) and we tried to make a fresh start. Or at least so I thought. Julia was afraid to let it be public since it might reflect badly on me. I stupidly accepted. We got better and better and everything seemed to be good, but then, it all went screwy… we ended the evening on another argument.

The next morning, Julia was gone. Not in world, no email, no contact… Was something wrong? Had she been in an accident? So I waited… and waited… I tried to contact her, but to no avail and then one day, she was no longer in the players list… her account – gone! I tried to find out but privacy policies prevented me knowing more than she’d deactivated it.

Life goes on, I guess… or does it. I waited over three weeks for her to make contact… and then, I gave in to those around me and I tried to move on. And so, with a friend, I started to form a new relationship. Her name is Freya, and mostly she treats me very well..

This is where it gets weird. No sooner had Freya and I got together, than Julia gets back. She’s been in hospital for a month… Damn, did I feel bad! Here was my lover of over a year back, and I’m with someone else. Should I leave Freya and go back to Julia, or what…?

In the end, Julia made the decision for me. She accused me of never loving her and well, left. Not that I can blame her… I can only imagine how I’d have reacted in her place. I think that was the way I was leaning anyway, but even now, I’m not sure I was right. Freya’s great, but how can she replace Julia? I don’t even know that she wants me full time… She has a real life relationship after all, and let’s face it… for all virtual worlds are fun, real life must come first…

But where does it leave me… lost I guess… but tonight is tonight and we will see.

If you do know me in SL, come say “Hi”.. if not… well, give it a try, you get a week free… at secondlife.com and say “Hi” anyway.